something to think about....

Recently, i've been talking to one of my closest best friends, Sandra. She was a dear friend and still is. She's now in the States cause her mom works there. She's like a sister to me like all of my true friends. Anyway, we kept on talking about college. What course she should enter or not. Her mom persists on her taking nursing. Why? because it's more realistic than fashion designing. But it's not fair to not be able to choose what we want. It's not fair to not give all that we've got to something we feel that will make us happy. I know i am a bit of a bad friend to tell her to against her mother's wishes, but i don't want her to be miserable or to regret. I care for my friends and i don't want them to go through something as painful as regret.

Am i wrong for saying this? It is true that it is realistic to take up something that would earn us some money for the future, but what if it won't make us happy? Should we just accept things and regret them? Should we submit to what we call "reality"?

All the people who tell me to be more realistic, i don't quite believe in them. What's wrong with dreaming big? It happens to other people, why can't it happen to anyone else, to us? I know it has nothing to do with luck. And saying that we have to be more realistic, doesn't it mean the same thing that we are succumbing to the mediocrity of this world? It's the same thing. We accept that we can't go further than where we are. But is that really true? The acomodador (mexican term meaning "the giving up point") is getting to us all the time. And thus, regret shows up with unhappiness and deceit.

I know money is important, but money cannot buy us happiness. It can buy us what we need, but what is more important to us? Happiness or materialistic needs and wants? I know people would say that materialistic things are more important. But can one live without happiness? Can one truly achieve what we truly need, what our soul truly needs with just material? Why is it so wrong to go after what we want? Why is it so wrong to try to be happy? Why is it so wrong to try but fail? We all fail at something. But just because we failed for one time doesn't mean it's the end of it all. The acomodador just comes and takes us away from our happiness. We should never lose hope. Dreaming is better than being realistic. If we were all realistic, would this world still ever be the same? Would America have a black president right now if it was not for the ideals of Abraham Lincoln? Why do people find it so bad to try for what they really want? Because of money and poverty? Isn't it our fault how things turn out for us? "If we don't give up, would we really achieve our goal?" this is the question that leads us nearer to the acomodador. How would we know if we don't keep trying? I really think that we should do what we want, what we believe would make us happy and have no regret.

College is coming up and for a time, i felt like i wasn't going to make into music. But i've changed that thought. I now believe that i can do it. I will not succumb to reality nor to the acomodador. I will not succumb to anything that stands in my way. I will not give up for my happiness is the price i must pay if i give everything up.

May it be in relationships or careers, i will never give up. "Reality" is the only word that stands between us and what we want. And if we get past this haunting and fearful thought, i know we can achieve what we want. Everyone has his or her day, so let's not give this day up. Let's not give happiness up for happiness is the only thing we all look for in this life time. Let's all do our best with all we've got and never look back. Let us be free from this mediocrity and this "reality" as we call it.

Sandra, I am looking forward to your coming back here on June 14. I hope that your mom agrees to what you want. And as to all my friends, i hope you can achieve true happiness as well.

Anyway, apart from this, today was a happy day once again. I spent the day with Nigel and had so much fun. Although being not able to swim was a bit of a letdown but it's all good. We also walked Rowdy in Bonifacio High Street and got ice cream (coldrock is really expensive :|). Anyway, thanks for this great day Nige, i'm glad we did something different this time :).

~living life in love <3 -Talia-~